Having a #Bloglife Crisis
Out of all the crazy and random things that have happened to me in my life the top 5 are inevitably…
1. Being in a hit n’ run accident with my mom when I was 11 and then having a purple chicken* chase down the assailant while we waited on the side of the road for the police.
2.Being 16 and having my first kiss, on the 4th of July, which sounds so romantic only it wasn’t since the dude soon discovered I had never kissed before which to him was code for “not getting to 2nd base” so he soon moved on to someone else…that same night.
3. Spending the greater part of my 20’s on a mission to find a husband, only to get find one, lose one and then have a baby in that order ~ which sounds really sad only it’s not because I am blessed with JRB and the marriage would have failed anyway.
4. Winning an iPad at Grandma’s Funeral.
5. Being blessed with a child who is not only good at math but also has a knack for finding our car in any parking lot.
But perhaps the craziest thing that has happened to me, or at least will happen to me is that I am turning 45 at the end of this month. 45. How in the world did that happen? Don’t get me wrong, I’m not bummed about getting older. I’ve always believed in “getting better” each year and considering 40 is the new 20, I am pretty much in the prime of my life, right? But 45 sounds so mature, settled, grounded…so not me. Or is it?
Do me a favor. Close your eyes and think about where you are. What do you like? What do you want to change? For me, I like where I am. I love being a mom, I’m glad I’m not married to my ex-husband (who calls and texts me too much, but he’s a devoted dad so there’s that). I love my job writing for the paper, doing TV and Radio segments and writing this blog. But here’s the thing, here’s where the Blog Life Crisis comes in…can I be a 45 year old “Mommy on a Shoestring” ~ Does it still make sense for me to write about family fun activities on a shoestring budget at 45? My gut feeling is yes, because this is who I am. I love to talk about child development, family fun crafts and how you can teach your dog to paint. I love being able to review meaningful films, showcase EASY PEASY recipes and talk about important causes that are dear to my heart. Friends who know me, know the irony of my”cooking” segments on TV or writing posts about being organized (okay I don’t think I’ve ever done that). I’ve been dealt a few blows in my life but they have all been pretty minor and the bigger ones have changed me and made me better. I’m now more aware, empathetic, grateful and even…mature? Nah! But I can dream. So here’s to “more at 45,” more family fun, recipes, crafts and games. At 45, I’m not getting older, I’m just getting started. xo
*The purple chicken was a singing telegram deliverer and although she didn’t catch the assailant, she did get his license plate number which turned out to be a stolen car!